My New Job

My New Job

 

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Hello and happy Saturday. I felt that you were by my side earlier this year when I had to quit, and then the months after when I dedicated most of my time to scheduling posts, and you stayed with me when I left to pursue what I thought was my dream life. When I decided that said life wasn’t for me, I felt that you were still there, reading me, trying to understand where I came from, and in a way, supporting me. That’s why I feel that today I owe you this update, which I’ve been putting off for a while now, but the day has come. Today I’ll tell you about my new job.

For those who are new here and felt super confused about that intro and also kind of felt that maybe I’m too much of a mess and you should go to another blog where someone has their shit together, let me give you some context. A few months ago now I left my home to go live in Baltimore and get certified as a teacher there. Why Baltimore? I’m pretty sure I answered that question in another post, that’s not the point. The point is that my depression and anxiety got to a very scary level while I was there and I decided to come back home.

Deciding to go home, although the smart choice mental health-wise, wasn’t very convenient in terms of a job search. You see, I came back in the middle of July, a time in which most schools are already on vacation, meaning no one was hiring, or the ones that had begun working weren’t looking for new staff members. Still, I interviewed with a school and a preschool center, but I feel that I was still too broken and the interviewers saw through that. Today I think that I should’ve given myself a little bit more time, maybe after I’d sought professional health or something so that I could be more prepared to face those interviews.

I was already starting to lose hope when I got a call on a Thursday from a school I’d heard but knew nothing about. I had an interview Friday afternoon and though I was a wreck, I kind of projected all my energy into those few minutes, which I knew would make or break my chances. I even used my energy to try to convince myself that I wanted to teach high school because I was that desperate for a job.

Yes, I got a job as a high school English teacher. I only had to work for the last three months of school, but let me tell you, those were tough months. I will talk more about this in a future post, but I want to give everyone a piece of advise, whether you’re a teacher or not, and it’s: don’t sign up for something you know deep down you won’t enjoy.

Through therapy I’ve discovered that I’m a very insecure person when it comes to my own value. I’m too harsh on myself, and this new job made me feel constantly that I wasn’t good enough. And the truth is maybe I’m not a good high school teacher, and I don’t think that’s a bad thing because my dream in life isn’t to teach teenagers, that was just something circumstantial. But beyond that, I felt like I was forcing some aspects of my role as a teacher, when they came naturally to me. There were times when I struggled to get ideas for my classes, when I questioned whether my students would be engaged or not, and that was something I never experienced with my younger students.

Now, of course it’s not like I spent three months being miserable and crying everyday because my classes sucked. As you will see in some of my Saturday posts, and as I believe you could already see last week, I managed to come up with ideas and strategies that worked and that I’m proud of. Ironically, I was able to do something that so far I had only thought about, which was creating materials for higher levels. Of course, my students were my Guinea pigs and piloting those resources in class helped me improve them so that I can hopefully upload them to my TpT store.

Today I’m in one of those weird creative cycles of mine in which I’ll schedule a ton of posts (and skip German class because this girl needs to blog), and so I finally sat down to write about this rollercoaster. Spoiler alert: it isn’t over, so make sure to check out this blog regularly because in the near future you’ll be getting some updates.

In the comments below tell me about your employment situation. Are you happily employed? Unhappily employed? Happily unemployed? Desperately searching? I’ve been through all of them.

Happy teaching!

Love, Miss Camila

This Book Deserves Two Posts

This Book Deserves Two Posts

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Hello and happy Wednesday. I was convinced this book was an ARC and I was going to launch a new series with a review, but I’ll guess that’s going to happen some other day. I don’t know how and why the book Counting to D by Kate Scott came to me, but I read it and now I’m ready to share my review with you. Let’s get started, shall we?

Like the title indicates, yes, there are going to be two posts about this book because it was so bad I decided only one wouldn’t do it justice. Today I’m going to talk about my first impressions, and then for the next post, I’m going to share a little surprise with you.

I began reading this book on March 18th and finished it on March 201th. I think this is the only good thing I have to say about this. It is a quick read, which is totally ironic given the fact that the main character has dyslexia and is illiterate (her words, not mine.)

Now that I’m using my Magical Monthly Reading Planner to write down these reviews, I am including my rating for each novel, and I’d originally given this two stars. My final rating, though, is one star because not only this novel was horrible, it was also full of ableist jokes. Basically, people were made fun of for having learning disabilities. No. Just, no. I always give authors that one extra star for effort, but Kate, you don’t deserve yours.

My general thought about the writing style is that it was clearly written by an amateur. I mean, the first page alone was all over the place, and this didn’t improve as the novel progressed. You know how I hate the “girl moving cities” thing, like seriously, that’s old news. From that first page in which the main character announces she’s moving, I could already know what was going to happen, and I’m sure you can guess it, too. This is probably why it took me just two days to read this book: it was boring and predictable. And while we’re at it, guessed what the main character did? Yes, she released a breath she didn’t realize she was holding. How could she not?

Another thing that really bothered me about this novel is that it was supposed to be a young adult novel, but the author had no idea how 15-year-olds speak nowadays. The dialogs were forced, and some expressions I’d never heard were included. It just added to the things that didn’t let me connect with this story. The main character was totally off for me, and I think if she’d been twelve instead of fifteen and this would have been marketed as a middle grade, maybe I wouldn’t have despised this so much.

Let’s start a blacklist. A list of books we don’t want anybody to read. This is obviously my candidate. Share yours in the comments below.

Happy Wednesday!

Love, Miss Camila

Cool-Toned Inverted Smokey Eye

Cool-Toned Inverted Smokey Eye

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Hello and happy Monday. I want to share a look that I’d had in my mind for a while and I finally tried it recently. I call it an inverted smokey eye because it starts with the darkest shade in the inner corner and lightens up all the way to the outer corner. You can see it kind of changes the eye shape a bit, and I honestly was living for it. These are the steps I followed to achieve it:

  1. Primer
  2. Cool brown (crease)
  3. Blue eyeliner (inner corner)
  4. Smudge eyeliner
  5. Light blue eyeliner (center of the lid)
  6. Smudge eyeliner
  7. Silver eyeshadow (outer corner)
  8. Light blue eyeliner (lower lash line)
  9. Mascara
  10. Foundation
  11. Concealer
  12. Powder
  13. Eyebrows
  14. Bronzer
  15. Blush
  16. Highlighter
  17. Lipliner
  18. Lipgloss

What look have you been experimenting with lately? Let me know in the comments.

Happy Monday!

Love, Miss Camila

New Jewelry Haul

New Jewelry Haul

 

Hello and happy Sunday. Today I bring you a jewelry haul because you know that’s something I love, but it had been a while since I’d treated myself in that department. I recently bought some beautiful pieces online from Poesie, which is a Colombian company owned by my best friend’s cousin.

I have known the owner literally since I was a kid, and I have several pieces created by her that my best friend and her family have gifted me. She recently made her website accessible, which you know is ideal for me because I buy basically everything online, so I decided to treat myself.

As you can see, I got three items, two of which come with a little paper explaining the stone used, and she also sent a really nice handwritten note, which I think is just a super thoughtful detail.

Now, before we continue, this store is based in Colombia as far as I know, so I don’t think there’s international shipping, but if you’re around, you should definitely get something. I was in desperate need of a new beginning, so this moon stone collection was just perfect for me. I got the Unuk piedra luna earrings for 29.900 COP ($9.38), the Hoedus bracelet for that same price, and the Alioth ring for 39.900 COP ($12.52).

If you want a full Poesie jewelry haul, or a full jewelry haul regardless of the brand, let me know in the comments below.

Happy Sunday!

Love, Miss Camila

Reto Lector Junio: El revés del alma

Reto Lector Junio: El revés del alma

GOING ON.pngHola y feliz sábado. El día de hoy les voy a hablar sobre El revés del alma de Carla Guelfenbein. En años anteriores había leído otra novela de ella y me encantó su estilo, entonces mis expectativas eran altas.

Como he empezado a notar que es común en sus novelas, la historia se cuenta desde diferentes perspectivas. En esta novela, por ejemplo, los capítulos alternan entre los puntos de vista de tres mujeres. En dos de los capítulos la narración es en primera persona y en el otro es en tercera. La autora también juega mucho con los tiempos, y hace saltos al pasado en los que la narración cambia pues es cada personaje quien cuenta parte de su historia.

Considero importante hacer una advertencia sobre uno de los temas de esta novela, los desórdenes alimenticios. Hay escenas explícitas en las que la protagonista tiene atracones de comida y posteriormente vomita. Si este es un tema que les genera sensibilidad, no les recomiendo esta novela.

Dado que este tema de los desórdenes alimenticios es problemático para mí, no siento que tenga mucho más que decir respecto de esta novela. El estilo de la autora es impecable, y la historia logra cautivarlo a uno. Diría que el encanto de este libro son los personajes más que la trama.

¿Han leído algo de Carla Guelfenbein? ¿Qué les parecío? Cuéntenme en los comentarios.

¡Feliz lectura!

Con amor, Miss Camila

May Thankful Thursday

May Thankful Thursday

Copy of THROWBACK THURSDAY.pngHello and happy Thursday. Welcome to the special edition of Throwback Thursday in which we look through my notebook of things that make me happy and randomly select five to share with you. Let’s get started, shall we?

 

May 3rd, 2017

#648: Hanging out by the pool

I mean, do we really need a context for this one? Trips make me happy. Pools make me happy, even if I don’t get in them. If you don’t like to hang out by a pool, tell me why, please. I’m curious.

May 7th, 2017

#668: Updating my teaching folders

Here I think I was referring to the Google Drive folders I have, which are full of resources I have acquired and made through the years. I have always loved organizing things, and by this, I don’t mean just physical stuff. I love having my digital files and folders neatly organized.

May 13th, 2017 

#700: The soundtrack for a great musical

I want to say I was referring to Dear Evan Hansen, but I can’t be sure because I don’t know since when that show has been around. I personally don’t enjoy musicals as much as other people, but I love listening (and singing) to their music. I haven’t watched Dear Evan Hansen, but I came across its soundtrack and I loved it.

May 17th, 2017

#723: Watching Puss in Boots

For those of you who are new here, hello, my name is Camila and I absolutely love children’s movies. One of the topics I worked on with my former kinder boys was related to fairy tales and nursery rhymes, so as a closure, we watched Puss in Boots, and I enjoyed that movie more than all my students put together.

May 23rd, 2017

#750: Getting through with my Portuguese homework

I don’t usually struggle when it comes to learning a new language, and I found Portuguese particularly easy. This homework, though, must’ve been long and hard because finishing it made me happy.

Now it’s your turn to tell me something that has made you happy. Spread the happy thoughts in the comments below.

Happy Thursday!

Love, Miss Camila

Kindle Haul #7

Kindle Haul #7

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100th (2).pngHello and happy Wednesday. Apparently, I gave myself a break in November of 2018 because I didn’t buy any ebooks then. I did get seven new titles for my collection in December, and I want to tell you all about how little I spent. Let’s get started, shall we?

Black Beauty by Anna Sewell 

Good news about this book! It’s still $1.99, so if you’ve been thinking about getting it, do it now.

Oranges Are Not the Only Fruit by Jeanette Winterson

This book was $1.99 when I got it, and it is now $9.64.

Wrecked by Maria Padan 

This title is now $5.69, which is obviously more than $1.99, but it’s not a terrible price.

The Big Leap by Gay Hendricks 

This book is now $11.99, so I would wait for a sale. (I got it for $1.99.) If I’m not mistaken, this is a Great on Kindle book because it belongs to the self-improvement genre. This means that if you get it, you’ll get credit so that you can keep buying Great on Kindle books.

Eat, Pray, Love by Elizabeth Gilbert 

Again, wait until this is on sale, unless you want to pay $12.99 for it, which let’s be honest, you don’t. You’d rather pay $1.99 like I did, right?

The Home for Unwanted Girls by Joanna Goodman

This book is currently $9.99, if you’re interested in buying it. (Interested on?) Anyway, I bought it for $1.99.

The 12 Dares of Christa by Marissa Burt

This beauty was $1.99 when I got it, and it is now $7.99. Not a terrible price, but would you pay it?

That’s it for today’s haul. I would like to know about the cheapest book you’ve ever gotten. Share some nice stories with me in the comments!

Happy reading!

Love, Miss Camila