Hello and happy Thursday. I know I haven’t done a Throwback Thursday in a while, but I think today it’s a must. You see, when I got my bad tattoo, I told you all about it, mainly because, as someone who’s gotten her fair share of tattoos, I never thought I’d accidentally get the wrong thing inked, but it happened.
I was in a bad place when I got that tattoo, and although there was no way the guy who did it could’ve noticed, getting a misspelled word in a foreign language on my wrist added to the list of things that went wrong in my life during 2018.
After not taking proper care of it in the hopes that it would simply vanish (it doesn’t happen that way, though, please don’t be stupid and avoid infections), I started covering it with makeup and micropore every single day of my life. I’d tell people that I covered it because I wasn’t allowed to show it at work, but the truth was, even if nobody would understand what it said or why it was wrong, I was ashamed of it and of myself for having gotten it.
Now, if you know me, then you know that I’ve never considered laser as an option for me. I think that any tattoo that I get is special, and that laser is ultimately expensive, painful, and not totally effective. People don’t get that the ink will be gone but they’ll have a scar in turn. I didn’t want a scar, so I kept covering my tattoo.
It wasn’t until a few months ago when I was thinking more clearly, that I realized I could cover the one misspelled word with something equally small. I considered a feather because they’re cute and dainty and they have this angelic sort of meaning to them. You see, “baruch,” the word that was actually spelled correctly, means blessed, so I thought that accompanying with a feather was fitting.
I’m telling you this story for many reasons. To let you know that there are some stupid mistakes that we make, and that sometimes we won’t see a solution for them until months later. To tell you that, like me last year, you might not be thinking or seeing things clearly, but hopefully in the future, you will. I also want to check up on you. Are you doing alright? Are you taking care of yourself and the decisions you make? Hopefully, you are.
Love, Miss Camila