Monday Makeup

Hello and happy Monday. A few years ago I came across this piece of advice that was something along the lines of: “if you’re hungover but need to be presentable, just wear a dress or a skirt, so people will actually think you’ve put more effort into your morning routine.” Even though I don’t drink, I agree with that piece of advice, and at times when I haven’t felt my best, I’ve applied the “fake it till you make it” philosophy. Today’s makeup look is super easy to achieve, but trust me, it’ll get you all the compliments. Here are the steps I followed:

 

 

 

 

  1. Primer
  2. Foundation
  3. Concealer
  4. Eyebrows
  5. White (eyelid base)
  6. Matte brown (crease)
  7. Matte brown (lower lash line)
  8. Black eyeliner (tightline)
  9. Mascara
  10. Powder
  11. Blush
  12. Lipliner
  13. Matte red lipstick

In the comments below, share any tricks you know to look your best even when you’re not feeling it.

Happy Monday!

Love, Miss Camila

Sample vs. Full Size #2

Miss Camila.pngHello and happy Sunday. Welcome to another episode of Sample vs. Full Size. Today I have five products I can’t wait to talk about. Let’s get started, shall we?

 

 

THE BALM COSMETICS Balm Springs Blush

Full size: I gave away my sample, so I don’t know its weight. The full-size version weighs 5.61g or 0.197oz.

Full price: $21

Buy? Yes/no? Why? I really like this brand and I really liked this blush. I think I gave it away because I had a similar shade already, but I love that it’s a matte and it gives the skin that healthy rosy glow. I wouldn’t pay $21 for a blush like this when Revlon, Elf, and even Almay have great blushes for way less than that.

DOUCCE Maxlash Volumizer Mascara 

Full size: I got the mini version, and there isn’t information on the full-size one.

Full price: $22

Buy? Yes/ No? Why? This is an alright mascara, but I don’t feel it’s superior to others I’ve tried. I gave this away because I already had others I preferred. I wouldn’t buy this in full size because I think there are drugstore mascaras doing a better job for over half the price.

MARGARET DABBS LONDON Treatment Enriched Nail Polish in Green Daylily 

Full size: I got the full size version in by glam bag.

Full price: $22

Buy? Yes/No? Why? I talked more in-depth about this nail polish in a haul, so be sure to check it out. Basically, I like the color but I’m not too sure about the formulation. I think the pricepoint for this is absurd, and I wouldn’t think about buying this or any other shade in the line. I’d rather stick to my $1 nail polish I get at the supermarket, which has a way better formulation and lasts me more than a day.

DELECTABLE BY CAKE BEAUTY Triple Moisture Body Lotion in Coconut & Cream 

Full size: I’m pretty sure I got the travel size version (60 ml or 2 fl. oz). The full size version contains 236 ml or  8 fl. oz.

Full price: The travel size version is $6 and the full size version is $14.

Buy? Yes/No? Why? I already talked about this product in an Empties post, but I don’t remember whether I said I’d buy it or not. Right this second I think I would pay $14 for the full-size version because I really loved the scent and the feel of this lotion, and I think the price is fair. Please don’t make it more expensive!

VASANTI COSMETICS Power Oil Lip Gloss in Super Mom 

Full size: I got the full size version in my glam bag.

Full price: $22

Buy? Yes/No? Why? First and foremost, what is it with companies charging $22 for their products? I absolutely adore this lipgloss and I think both the formulation and the shade are amazing. This could easily be one of my favorite, most-used lippies, but knowing how expensive it is, I’d rather buy the more affordable versions brands like NYX, Maybelline, Revlon, and L’Oreal have to offer.

In the comments, let me know whether you’d buy any of these products and why.

Happy Sunday!

Love, Miss Camila

Get My Attention on OK Cupid: Moving to Other Platforms

Announcement (2).pngHello and happy Saturday. I’m really excited to bring you the last post of the “Get My Attention on OK Cupid” series because I think today’s topic is a make-it-or-break-it when it comes to progressing in online interactions. Even though my experiences with J and MHD failed because I’m currently not talking to either, they were successful in the way that they both progressed past OK Cupid. Basically, today I’m talking about how important it is for me to move to other platforms when the moment is right.

When I’m checking out a guy’s profile, which is my second filter after liking his pictures, I make sure he doesn’t have any social media/ contact information displayed in it. Why? Wouldn’t it just be easier to contact them directly via Snapchat or Whatsapp? Of course it would be easier, but that doesn’t mean it’d be better. I used to make the mistake of posting my Instagram and Snapchat handles in my profile, and in some occasions I did get directly contacted by some guys. The messages were actually very polite and no unsolicited dick pics were involved (thank goodness). Still, I’m not letting that information be public; if I consider someone deserving of it, then I’ll give it personally.

Displaying your social media information like that is in a way setting a trap and seeing who catches. You’re not making any effort, the people who see your profile are, and if that’s the case, then I don’t want to have any interaction with you. To me, it comes to this: if you share your Instagram, you only want to be seen (and you care way too much about your follower count even if you won’t admit it); if you share your Whatsapp, you just want to talk to literally anyone, and you don’t really care about making a connection; and finally, if you share your Snapchat, then you clearly just want to send dick pics to whomever is watching (and hoping they’ll return the favor).

If what you’re really after is finding people with whom you can make a particular connection, keep that information to yourself at first. In both of my noteworthy online dating experiences, I’ve been the one to tell the guy “hey, let’s move on to another platform.” With J, he actually had to download Whatsapp and I’m pretty sure I was his only contact, while with MHD I told him to follow me on Instagram and we used the messaging feature for a while, and then we moved on to Snapchat.

I think everybody’s “right time” can be different, especially given the conditions you’re in. If you’re meeting people in your area, it makes sense to move on to other platforms that same day because chances are you want to meet soon. In both of my cases, I had more time to decide whether I was interested in continuing the conversation elsewhere or not, so I took a week. Now, it’s not like I counted the days or anything, but that’s how long I’d been talking with each guy when I proposed the use of another app.

As I told you, both guys agreed immediately. MHD followed me on IG and texted me right away, even though for some reason I didn’t see his message until the following day. I don’t have a problem being the one who suggests using apps that I think are more personal than OK Cupid, but I’m not going to beg a guy to do so. I can make the suggestion, but I obviously expect a positive reply. If you’d prefer not to exchange numbers, use other apps that don’t require a phone number, but don’t give me the “I have no Facebook/ Instagram” excuse. This doesn’t guarantee that a guy is not a catfish, but I believe if he’s able to give you a solution like “I don’t have IG but we can talk via Facebook/ Snapchat,” then you can give him the chance. My brother doesn’t have an Instagram account, but he does have Snapchat and Facebook (and he’s clearly a real person), so I know the case is rare, but it happens.

Now, I think the magic of moving on to other platforms is making things more real. You’re just not two profiles, but you’re showing each other who you are outside of an online dating app, and that’s great. By being on Instagram, you’re able to see things in a person that they might not even know they’re showing: they love their pets, they spend a lot of time with family/ friends. Hell, you can even know that they still value a former relationship because there are posts of them and their ex they haven’t deleted. And it can also tell you things about yourself by looking at their profile: “look, he’s got a tattoo. That’s pretty hot,” or “oh, wait, are those his parents? What a sweet picture!”

I couldn’t have held the conversations I did with J or MHD had we stuck to OK Cupid, but I don’t think I would’ve trusted them as much had they suggested to switch to something else too soon. What do you think about this? What is your “right time” when it comes to giving someone you met online your number or social media handles? Let me know in the comments!

Happy Saturday!

Love, Miss Camila

On Mental Health

THROWBACK THURSDAY (1).pngHello and happy Thursday. Last week I told you about my panic attack and I did because I feel the need to be open and share with you every aspect of my life. You know about my bad tattoos, you know about my experiences online dating, and you even know about what birth control method I use, so it just makes sense that you know about the state of my mental health.

I recently came back from Baltimore after months of planning of moving there because after just a few days abroad and on my own, I started noticing signs that something wasn’t right with me. I am not an expert on mental health issues, and I don’t want any part of the experience I’m going to share to be thought as an absolute and irrefutable truth. This is my truth, and this is what made me open my eyes and realize that I had a problem so big and so urgent that I had to leave my plans of becoming independent and go back to my country and my home, and basically start over. The reason why I’m sharing this, other than the need I already talked about to be open with you, is that I’m convinced that if this story is able to reach at least one person and help them in some way, then my own struggle was worth it. Let’s get started, shall we?

1. I DIDN’T FEEL LIKE DOING MY MAKEUP

I’m the kind of person who wears makeup almost every day, and I do all the steps: primer, foundation, eyebrows…but after a couple of days in the States I didn’t want to. I just felt like I didn’t have the energy, or rather the drive to sit down and do something I’d done nearly every day since the age of 19. My sister (who’s majoring in psychology) then explained to me that people going through depression experience this thing called anhedonia. It basically means that you no longer enjoy the things that used to make you happy.

2. SOME DAYS, I ONLY HAD ONE MEAL

I’m a big girl and I love eating, okay? I like my five meals a day and sometimes I even do more than that. Well, when I was in Baltimore I only did three meals, and some days I just did one or two. I remember one full day not experiencing hunger. I literally went to the kitchen and made myself something to eat just because I didn’t want to pass out. But even then, I didn’t enjoy what I was eating. This is totally related to what I explained in the previous item: I was basically “losing” everything that made me happy.

3. THERE WERE TIMES WHEN I DIDN’T WANT TO GET OUT OF BED

That day when I just had the one meal, I stayed in bed all day. I know that’s what some people do on Sundays or whenever they can, and I’m not saying that necessarily is something bad, but for me it was. I was in this new city, in a foreign country. It was summertime and I had a free day after a hectic week, and yet I was in my room all day under the blankets watching Younger and counting the hours for the day to be over. I was not alright.

4. MY HAIR WAS FALLING OFF

This is what did it, the fact that after showering I ran a hand through my hair and ended up with literally a handful was scary. I knew I hadn’t been eating well and that might have weakened my hair to the point where it was falling off, but I also knew that was a physical manifestation of my anxiety, which was worse than ever because I had all these uncertainties in my life and I literally couldn’t handle them.

If you notice something out of the ordinary for you that might indicate your mental health is not at is best, ask for help.

Happy Thursday,

Love, Miss Camila

Pass the Tissues

Hello and happy Wednesday. I thought about this title, and then I was like, “well, technically you didn’t cry THAT MUCH reading this book,” but whatever, let’s just go with it. Today I’ll share an in-depth review of Me Before You by Jojo Moyes, and I hope you really appreciate it. Let’s get started, shall we?

When I say “in-depth” I mean that I usually just share my thoughts in a very superficial way, telling you what I liked and didn’t like, and that’s pretty much it. I share the notes I take as I read the book, but in the case of Me Before You I took a shitton of notes, way more than the average.

I was shocked from the start by this book because I started reading it kind of expecting to hate it. It had all the disappointing elements, you know? It had been a bestseller and was turned into a movie with basically the most gorgeous actors available, and that’s the kind of combination I tend to steer clear from, at least until the whole fuss goes away. Basically yes, I was predisposed to not like this book.

I say I was shocked from the start because what we get to read first, the prologue, is the narration of how Will’s “accident” happens. I don’t want to let out too much about it, but I just always thought, based on the movie trailers I’d seen, that we were going to read about a skydiving adventure gone wrong or something of the sort. I like when from the get-go a novel manages to surprise me and prove my preconceptions wrong.

Will is Lou’s patient, and Lou is our main character. To me, she was a very refreshing character for various reasons, the first one being her age. She was 26 years old when the narration of the novel starts, and I love that because as much as I love my YA, it’s nice to read about characters my own age. She also lives with her parents, which is something we usually don’t see in new adult novels because 26 year-olds are supposed to have their shit together and have their own place.

This novel was seriously addictive, and I think it was the author’s style what did it for me. I feel that British authors tend to be way more descriptive than American ones, and that makes stories all the more believable because they’re easier to picture in my mind. Now, obviously the fact that there’s romance involved helped influence my love towards the novel, but here I have to stop and clarify something. This novel is about love, it is about true love and I had never before seen a more clear representation of it. If you’re looking for kisses and touches and sex, then look elsewhere because this is not that kind of book.

I also felt personally connected to the story because through Lou’s narration we get to understand the struggles people on wheelchairs have to endure sometimes. My uncle is in a wheelchair, and I know what it is to become aware of how unprepared the world is for people with certain disabilities, and how urgent some adaptations are.

Now, here are some trigger warnings. You should not read this book if you have serious issues regarding suicide attempts. There is one in the novel, and it is described with some detail. There are also mentions of rape, or at least sexual assault. These scenes are not fully described in the story, but there are mentions of it and one can infer that one of the characters could have been sexually assaulted.

This is not a trigger warning per se, but a personal opinion. I hated the way Lou’s family treated her. I cannot talk about verbal or emotional abuse, but I can tell you that sometimes their comments were straight up mean. This affected Lou and her self-perception to the point where she was convinced she wasn’t a smart person.

As you have been able to read, Me Before You definitely surprised me in several ways. I must admit that it was way deeper than I’d initially anticipated. I was also surprised by the chapters told from other character’s perspectives. We get Will’s mom, Nathan, Will’s dad, and Lou’s sister. I would’ve liked a chapter from Will’s perspective as well, if I’m being completely honest.

Now, this story is truly heartbreaking, but it didn’t straight up made me cry from page one or anything. I feel it mostly reminded me of things from my own life that did made me cry, you know? Also, yes, the last pages made me straight up cry like a sobbing mess, but I knew that was bound to happen.

I searched for the movie, but it isn’t on Netflix, so I guess I’ll have to keep looking. In the comments below, let me know whether you’ve read any books from Jojo Moyes and what you thought of them.

Happy reading!

Love, Miss Camila

“Take Me Swimming” Makeup

Hello and happy Monday. I’ve already done a few posts sharing with you the makeup I wear when I travel. Yes, I’m that kind of girl who wears makeup to the beach and by the pool, so thank you for taking me swimming, but just so you know, the makeup is coming with me. This afternoon I’m actually going on a trip, so I decided it’d be cool to show you the look I’m wearing (also, how cute is my jumpsuit?) Here are the steps I followed to achieve this look:

 

 

 

 

 

 

  1. Primer
  2. Stick foundation
  3. Beige (eyelid base)
  4. Dark brown (outer corner)
  5. Dark brown (lower lash line)
  6. Mascara
  7. Brown eyeliner (tightline)
  8. Bronzer
  9. Blush
  10. Lipliner
  11. Matte lip crayon

In the comments, tell me your favorite first-date ideas.

Happy Monday!

Love, Miss Camila

Trying Halo Beauty: After

Hello and happy Sunday. I finally finished taking Halo Beauty, and let me tell you, my skin is glad that month of torture is over. I’m not going to come here and tell you this product sucks and you shouldn’t buy it because I’ve seen other people’s before and afters and I know that for some people it works. Hell, I wouldn’t have spent $40 plus shipping if I didn’t think this would make my skin, hair, and nails better, would I?

I do feel the need to tell you that in my particular case, Halo Beauty caused more harm than it did good. My hair looks alright, but it usually looks that way because I take good care of it, and even though it does look shinier and healthier than when I started taking the pills, I feel like I can get even better results by taking Sugar Bear Hair, which is cheaper, by the way.

My nails are long, but that’s what I’d expect from not filing them for a whole month. Are they stronger? Not really. Halo Beauty didn’t prevent them from peeling and chipping. I was super close to actually breaking a nail, and needed to file them all short after taking this “after” picture.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Surprisingly enough, my skin doesn’t look half as bad in the picture as it is in real life. Yes, I still have breakouts, but they’re actually healing now that I’ve stopped taking Halo Beauty.

I know I’ve previously said this, but I really wanted to like Halo Beauty and I really wanted it to work. Sadly, I don’t and it doesn’t, and even though I have no interest in searching for the reasons why it was such a fail for me, I’d like you to tell me, in the comments below, whether you’ve had a similar experience with this product or know someone who has.

 

Happy Sunday!

Love, Miss Camila

Get My Attention on OK Cupid: First Message

Announcement (1).pngHello and happy Saturday. When it comes to online dating, I’m not against texting first, but for some reason in my most successful experiences the guy was the one who sent the first message. I personally like that initial display of interest and attraction, and it makes me feel more at ease than if I were to text first and was just sort of expecting a reply. That is my personal case, and in no way I mean to say that guys “should” always text first.

Now, if you’ve been around for a while, you know that many guys in the past have tried to make a memorable first impression my sending me the craziest messages. Oddly enough, I didn’t swipe right on none of these guys. The problem, I think, with these weird messages, is that, though they’re well-intended, they don’t lead to a real conversation. If you send me a paragraph commenting on every little thing I wrote on my profile, am I expected to reply with another paragraph?

On the other hand, there are guys who just text “hey” or “hi,” which leaves me nothing to work with. You say hi, then I say hi back, and that’s pretty much it, no? I’ve sent “hi” or “happy Saturday” texts before, but once I’ve had other conversations with the person. I even send these texts as a way to let someone know I’m thinking about them, but I don’t really intend to have a full-on conversation with them.

There are texts that are not paragraph-long, but are not just one-syllable either. They seem to have potential, and so I’m eager to reply to them. And then the potential conversation just dies. I once spent three days talking to a guy, until I got tired and deleted the conversation. We exchanged about ten texts in those three days because every time I said something, he’d reply with a conversation ender. What are conversation enders, you ask? “Oh, okay,” “LOL,” “cool,” and expressions of the sort. There’s no reply to that, and when I don’t know a person and they text me this, I just automatically lose interest.

Let me get something very clear: I’m not saying that you should stop talking to EVERY guy who replies with one of these. If you’re having a fun conversation and somebody throws you a “cool,” maybe that means it’s time to change the subject; maybe that other person wants to keep talking to you, but they don’t know what else to say. I once was talking to this guy, and he threw me a conversation ender. I assumed the conversation was over, so I didn’t text anything back. After an hour, he texted me and we kept talking for a while. By the way, I did know this guy IRL, and actually I was the one who texted first.

Basically, in order to get my attention with the first message you send, make it something that can get a conversation started, and that has me interested. I’ve already told you how I don’t remember MHD’s first text, but what I do remember is the fact that we talked throughout that day and then the days after. Of course, it was both of us who kept the conversation going, but I was interested in keeping that conversation because we’d built a nice foundation for it.

The last post of the “Get My Attention on OK Cupid” series is all about making the transition to other platforms. How long does it take you to give a potential online match your number or social media info? Let me know in the comments below!

Happy Saturday!

Love, Miss Camila

My Panic Attack

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Hello and happy Thursday. There have been periods of my life when I haven’t had my shit together, and I’m very aware of that. There have been times when I’ve felt like everything is going wrong, and when I’ve just felt miserable 24/7.

The first time I realized something like this was going on was at the age of twenty, so over four years ago. You see, my guy best friend (whom I’ve never talked about in this blog before) had recently moved to Argentina. I had felt sad ever since the moment he’d told me about him moving away, and I don’t mean sad like “I’m going to miss him so much,” but like a vital part of my existence was taken away from me.

I’d always sort of had feelings for my best friend even though there was no chance in hell that something would ever happen between us. He was, after all, traveling all the way to the south of the continent to be with someone else. But this isn’t the story about a crush or my relationship with my best friend. This is the story of how I came to realize I was super close to being depressed.

For a while after my best friend left, everything sort of stopped making sense to me, and now, looking back I know that should’ve been a clear sign for me that something was wrong. I mean, yes, a very important person in my life had just moved far away, but everything else was still the same, and yet it didn’t feel that way.

One day I was on my way to work after university. I was giving private lessons to kids at their homes, and I got to experience for the first time what earning my own money feels like. I was on the bus and it was raining. To get to that afternoon’s students’ house I had to get off at a stop and then walk up this sort of hill. Not only was I going to arrive all wet, I was certain I’d be late because we all know how traffic gets when it rains.

Suddenly, I was overcome by anxiety. It was so overpowering that I rang the bell that announced I needed the bus to stop. I got off in a stop, not realizing until after I was in the middle of the street that it wasn’t my stop. And then it began.

I’m pretty sure not all panic attacks are the same, and I also think that if there’s any classification, mine could probably be in the “mild” category. I started crying right there. I cried for the rain and the traffic and the fact that I was going to be late for work. I cried for my best friend and the fact that I’d felt unhappy for weeks and I knew I couldn’t stay that way.

The rain forced me to moved to a location with a roof, so I ended up getting in a café and ordering the cheapest thing in the menu, just so I could sit down and have wi-fi access. I was texting my best friend. I worked on steadying my breathing and when the rain had subsided, I decided to start walking to my students’ house. I could still feel the effects of the attack: the need to cry, the pounding in my chest, but I willed myself to be as calm as possible and to try to carry on with my day.

I decided to tell you this story because up until a few weeks ago I thought it was a once in a lifetime thing for me, and after experiencing a second panic attack I feel that there are many people who suffer every day in silence and who should seek help. I am getting help right now because I’m pretty sure I have depression, and I deal with anxiety every second of my existence and it’s tough. But I’m done dealing with that by myself because even though the first time I was able to get things under control, I’m not sure about how many times I could tell the same story.

Happy Thursday!

Love, Miss Camila

This Reminds Me Of…

Hello and happy Wednesday. I have read my fair share of YA novels, so I think I have all the clichés covered and I can easily make associations between books based on a particular element of situation. If you’ve read some of my reviews, you know I actually say things along the lines of “this thing gave me major X vibes” or “this other situation reminds me a lot of Y.” Today, instead of sharing an in-depth review of Being Sloane Jacobs by Lauren Morrill, I want to tell you about what this novel reminded me of. Let’s get started, shall we?

I have to clarify something and it’s the fact that this is the second novel from Lauren Morrill I read, and for some reason I struggled a lot with the author’s writing style. Yes, as I kept reading I sort of eased into the story, but at first I wasn’t having that much fun.

One of our main characters is into figure skating (or something of the sort, I don’t know if that’s the actual technical name), and that instantly reminded me of Bittersweet by Sarah Ockler. There are also family situations that indirectly interfere with the main character’s career, and that also made me think of Bittersweet. I reviewed that novel a while ago, so you can click here and check it out.

Lauren Morrill is the only author of this novel, but we have two characters who alternatively tell the story from their perspective. This kind of thing has been done by several authors, however, for some reason I was particularly reminded of Will Grayson, Will Grayson by John Green and David Levithan.

Like in Will Grayson, Will Grayson, our two main characters share the name Sloane Jacobs. They meet and decide to trade places for the summer. I know, Parent Trap much?

Lastly, remember I told you there was some family drama involved? Well, one of the girl’s dad is actually a Senator and there’s some sort of scandal around him. That made me think of This Is What Happy Looks Like by Jennifer E. Smith.

Have you read Being Sloane Jacobs or any of the books I mentioned in this post? Let me know in the comments below!

Happy reading!

Love, Miss Camila